So...
I swear a lot
I take a billion selfies but still don't feel pretty.
I spend too much time over thinking everysinglelittlething.
I'm kind of really a bitch.
Socializing gives me anxiety.
I had a panic attack in the mall today.
I'm kind of a total fucking mess.






I am Kellie Lees.

Honestly my heart feels like it is shattering...

Every time I see you, hear you or think of you, it hurts me.

You don't love me anymore and I hate it...

I hate knowing that I'll never again be held by you...

Never be kissed by you...

 I hate knowing that I'll never feel your lips tickle my ear when you tell me you love me while I lie beneath you...

I hate knowing that I will never be able to say "we've been together since high school"

You promised me forever and then you took that promise and ripped it from the seams...

You broke my heart and shattered my happiness....

I will never forgive you....

Blue ticket

Our hearts are wild animals.... That's why our RIBS are cages....

Instructions

In third grade, a girl at my new school told me "if you weren't so weird, people would play with you"

In fourth grade, a boy punched me in the face and said, “You’re a freak. You should work on that.”

In fifth grade, a girl came up to me and said "if you cut and maybe dyed your hair, we could be friends"

In sixth grade, a boy told me "if you lost weight and wore makeup, you would be pretty."

In seventh grade, people told me, “You should go kill yourself, you’re a freak”

In eighth grade, people told me, "You should swallow some pills and slit your wrists."

In ninth grade, a boy said "The sex is great, don't get me wrong, but nobody could ever love a bitch with a bunch of nasty ass scars."

In eleventh grade, people told me "you should drink bleach and be the next Amanda Todd. Life would be better for everyone"

In twelfth grade, I said: I've had enough.

I have tried so god damn hard to be good enough for everyone.

I’ve followed their instruction booklets and done exactly as they said, but somewhere along the way, I lost the only important instruction manual.

The one that told me how to be happy.